....could have's, should have's, could not's, should not's....

So many times we are filled with should have's or could not's. I have experienced this so much in the past several years. After being diagnosed with RA in 2006 my life changed (for the good/worst) I really couldn't decide! Still at times I am not so sure which either. But, I do know that life is what you make it and sometimes we realize that some of those things don't really matter and even it takes a few years to finish a task......guess what? Remember this that at least "it got done"!!! Sometimes I really struggle with this philosophy and then at other times it's the very thing I need to help me put things into perspective. My husband is a very busy man and he does so much in a day and often times I don't really give him near enough credit for the things he does. So let me tell you a small story that was once real BIG in my mind and caused me lots of distress. 

     We have a huge yard and my husband is an over the road trucker. He loves his job and he makes decent money....but the drawback is he isn't home much. 
     I have been asked by many people over the past 5-7 (eek...I know!!!) years why we have this box springs and mattress sitting in our back yard. Ok, now this was once a usable one back then, I am not really sure why it got left there or what the reason was, maybe the  kids used it a few times that summer for sleep outs I am not sure and I don't have an answer to this question. 
      I just know that before 2006 I would have moved this myself regardless of the consequences it would have caused me physically. But after the changes took place in my body there was no way I was gonna cause myself more pain and be down in bed for days on end recouping. 

      So there it sat...day after day....season after season....year after year!!! (yes it is still there). Of course as you can imagine it is destroyed and way beyond repair. 
      However, I walked past it the other day and I saw something. Something that made me stop and look at it in a much different perspective. 
      It is finally FINALLY almost perfect.  Because now I can move this thing without help, the batting pieces are scattered and easy to pick up and once I get that part cleaned up the springs are perfectly rusted & distressed and ready for something.....what I am not sure but they are finally perfect!!!

The moral of my story is this! In my life everything has a time and a season and now this is my season for some harvesting. Little did I know this source of madness that consumed me summer after summer for years and years would turn into something beautiful beyond my imagination. 

To be continued............................

Hugs, Katie